For the lack of a better phrase, this sucked ass for more than one reason. One side of me has feelings for this girl and the other side of me knows her past and has a duty as a friend to protect her from situations where she will get hurt again. The way I analyzed it in my own mind was that I was having a conflict within my own mind. There was this feeling in my stomach and fire that started to burn in my mind when I saw it. She began making out with this guy (who I believe she has only know for a month or so). I know she is quite the belligerent drinker and doesn't think quite clearly when she drinks so I kept a close but subtle eye on her. There came a point during the night where everyone (minus my girlfriend and I) became visibly drunk, including my friend. There were two guys that came, one of which she knew (and apparently liked). So just last night, we had a get-together/kickback at her place and my girlfriend and I went. I don't want to have feelings for this woman! Keep in mind I have never told her that I do have feelings for her. My strategy has held firm but as not solved my problem. If she needs a smile, I'll try to make her laugh. I've tried to remedy this problem with an attempt to channel or reroute my feelings in an appropriate manner, in the form of being a good and loyal FRIEND. However, I also understand that you simply can't change what your heart feels. I love my girlfriend and would never break my loyalty to her. It feels wrong and I don't know how it even developed. I've always been physically attracted to her, but in the past few months other feelings have started to develop. We text each other very often and spend time with each other a lot (sometimes alone and sometimes with my girlfriend and other friends). She's aware of what some guys are capable of, yet her actions still contradict what she really wants, which is to be single and emotionally heal from her previous relationship. All of which seem to just want to get in her pants. Also, she doesn't get along with other women and doesn't have many female friends (which makes things more difficult) So recently, she has been just "hooking up", "seeing" and spending time with guys. She has also stated that she is not ready for another relationship as she is still not over her ex-husband. She has had a difficult past with relationships and has always seemingly ended up with guys who don't give her the love, care, commitment, dedication, etc. She still has her flaws, and actually comes to me for help and guidance. She has also fought through some very adverse and tragic phases of her life on her own will and has made it to become a strong, independent, self-sufficient, and loving person. She is essentially the polar-opposite of my girlfriend in many regards. She has many desirable qualities as a woman and as a person in general. We share several common interests, passions and get along very well. She confides in me about things she says she does not tell anyone else, even her family. I have a friend that I met through work (we no longer work together currently) and have gotten to be very close friends. Today, we are strong, together and have big commitments in our future.īUT. We eventually reunited and agreed to improve on (and we have improved on) the areas where we were lacking in our relationship. We have our ups and downs, and have even separated at one point because things were not working correctly. "how come I'm always the one doing blah blah?", "all you do is play video games", etc) but they are always temporary and they do not affect the structural integrity of our relationship. Of course, there are small things that we get angry about (i.e. That is the beautiful thing about our relationship is that we are so compatible and cooperative that we can spend every day with each other with little-to-no problems. We now have our own apartment and are still getting along as living partners great. So we essentially lived with each other this entire time and have had very minimal problems or conflicts. Ever since the first few months of our relationship, we would stay at each others' houses every night and rarely spent nights apart. She is the most loyal and committed woman I have ever been with. I love her and consider myself the luckiest I have ever been to have her. I have been with my girlfriend for almost 5 years now. Ok so I am a guy and have a bit of a situation where I need some advice.
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